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Sat, May. 20th, 2006, 01:47 am
Obsession.

I'm obsessing over someone I don't even know. As a matter of fact, I don't even think we will ever meet again unless by some chance, our paths cross once more. It's getting to be irritating....causing me to hardly eat, have trouble falling asleep, and just pay attention to what I'm doing in general. I hope it's something that will be forgotten as soon as my attention can be caught by another amazingly fair lady. But those eyes! That stare! Never had a stare had that kind of effect on me. I keep replaying it over and over in my head and the memory of it continues to send chills down my spine...good chills though...more like butterflies in my tummy. That's it...mariposas! I want so bad to let it be a forgotten memory but fear that it will haunt me for a long time. I hate this feeling!

Thu, Dec. 29th, 2005, 12:53 am

I'm scared...My grandma remains in ICU after her massive stroke and I just want her to be OK. X-mas time is not the time to lose someone who is dear to you...I want Martine to be completely alleviated from any pain and feel entirely better. I want Amber's heart to stop beating too fast and for her not to have to go back into the hospital. I want so many things that I cannot be in control of and it frustrates the hell out of me.

Fri, Sep. 30th, 2005, 05:37 pm

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? my hair, and ever expanding belly which i detest.
2. How much cash do you have on you? 20 bucks
3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"? BREAST
4. Favorite plant? gardenia tree or plant or whatever it is. it's nice and smells good.
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? steph
6. What is your main ring tone on your phone? jazz band ringer
7. What shirt are you wearing?: black vintage tee with flamingos on it
8. Do you "label" yourself?: snobbish and preppy
9. Name brand of your shoes currently wearing?: AE
10. Bright or Dark Room?: dark room with one or two candles lit
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? amazing. likes to play with hair. likes to teach acting classes. is very smart. very entertaining...oh, and has a great ars
12. Ever "spilled the beans"? yes, a few times.
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? eating a whataburger biscuit and facebooking
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say? wher r u foo'
15. Do you ever click on "Pop Ups" or Banners? yes, and i never win a free ipod. :(
16. What's a saying that you say a lot? What are u doing? (in a very snobbish way) and that's DUNZO.
17. Who told you they loved you last? my mommy
18. Last furry thing you touched? my fuzzy navel, jk. Roxy my niece.
19. How many hours a week do you work? 15-20 hw hours that is.
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? 1 or 2
21. Favorite age you have been so far? 19
22. Your worst enemy? the little devil that sits on my shoulder and says "eat that brownie. you know u want it!"
23. What is your current desktop picture? LC from Laguna Beach.
24. What was the last thing you said to someone? i'm gonna hang at ur place cause u have HBO
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret? i've only had one major regret and that major regret helped me someway, so i'd have to go for the million buckaroos.

Sun, May. 15th, 2005, 08:08 pm

1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. Do you have a crush on me?

5. Would you kiss me?

6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

7. Describe me in one word.

8. What was your first impression?

9. Do you still think that way about me now?

10. What reminds you of me?

11. If you could give me anything what would it be?

12. How well do you know me?

13. When's the last time you saw me?

14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?

Sun, May. 1st, 2005, 11:42 pm
Amazing Weekend.

My weekend in H-town was freakin' amazing. I did everything I could have ever wanted to do and for that I thank my sister Roxanne. Entertaining things we did included all of the following:
1. Random late night trip to Kroger's to get the necessary ingredients for chicken bruschetta and spending a good ten minutes in search of marshmallows.
2. Delicious dinner with sister, Kristian, and Monisa.
3. Talking about Pecos with Kristian for over and hour the next morning.
4. Trying for forever to get a working shuttle at Rice and then attending an extremely interesting lecture with Roxanne.
5. Coffee at Agora and then stealing the cute little coffee cup for myself.
6. Driving around Uptown and to Memorial to the tunes of Jack Johnson and Reggaeton. Spotting the Kroger's Roxanne shops at and dubbing it Krofabulous to go along with the other one called Kroghetto
7. Screen on the Green at Rice while munching down on pizza and watching THE INCREDIBLES
8. Pregaming at Roxanne's and then partying like crazy at Martel. Spotting Ajay and screaming "It's gonna rain!". Seeing Stella for the first time in what seems like FOREVER
9. Going to Ruchi's after the party and practically passing out in my tacos al pastor or whatever the hell I was eating.
10. Waiting to go to bed until 5 a.m. just to sing the Frankie J. song "obsession"
11. Waking up late and having a breakfast of huevos/hashbrown tacos
12. Going to the Galleria with Roxanne and acting like rich kids by saying "I'm at Gucci" or "I'll meet you at Armani" and "We hung out with old friend Dior". Relaxing with some retail therapy and finding a shirt very similar to the one I could have paid and arm and leg for at Armani at Gap.
13. Wanting Jamba Juice but settling for Starbucks instead.
14. Going to HACER function and eating mole while listening to latin music. Then buying my first beer and not being carded for it. So much fun!
15. Arguing with Roxanne over which movie to rent and ending up with the cheesy as hell Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights
16. Watching the cheesy ass movie while sipping on some delicious sweet drink made by Monisa. Where the hell was La Revolucion?
17. Waking up and chowing down on pancakes, mac & cheese, and rice krispy treats.
18. Driving downtown and seeing the Latin Market that looked like so much fun.

I could seriously not have asked for a better weekend. To go along with the incredible weekend was a fun soundtrack that included the following tracks.

1. Frankie J.-Obsession
2. J.Lo featuring Fat Joe-Hold You Down
3. Shakira and Alejandro Sanz-La Tortura
4. The Game and 50 Cent-Hate it or Love it
5. Usher-Caught up
6. Pitbull-Toma
7. Jack Johnson's entire new CD "In Between Dreams"
8. La Oreja de Van Gogh-Rosas
9. Kalimba-Tocando Fondo
10. Snoop feat. Justin-Signs
11. Reik-Yo Quisiera
12. Notch feat. Pitbull-Mira Mira
13. Vanessa Carlton-Who's to Say
14. Will Smith-Switch
15. The HACER banquet CD's.

Thu, Apr. 21st, 2005, 10:42 pm

It has been ages since I last posted anything. Truth is, there isn't anything very important happening in my life right now. There is a girl. Her name is Ana P. I am in love, or maybe not. I knoweth not what it is that I feel. Every time I encounter her at school the butterflies take over my stomach and I completely lose my ability to speak intelligently. Also, she distracts me from my studies, and that is not a good thing. I was recently flipping through my biology notes and found that for the past four or five class periods, my notes have really really sucked. I blame this on her incredibly beautiful face and the fact that I can't take my eyes off of her while in class. Sure this all sounds nice and sweet but there is a twist...a major twist. Actually there are two twists and here they are.
Twist No. 1.) She is twenty four years old and far more mature than I am. I continuously think that I am rather mature for my age group but when around her, I feel like a thirteen year old boy starting puberty.
Twist No. 2.) She has a boyfriend who conveniently happens to be a Med student at the local Medical School. Many would think that this would immediately disillusion me from pursuing anything further, but it only encourages me. See, she began the flirting. I was fine with just watching her from my seat and being incredibly attracted to her beauty and mystery, but she just had to introduce herself. One morning, while I hung out in the garden next to the classroom, she came out and introduced herself and asked if we could work together on certain things for the class. I, as you can imagine, was ecstatic and immediately agreed to whatever she needed done. We continued to run into each other at school, or rather Martine kept spotting her (thanks Martine!)and I would conveniently walk by to get her attention. Anywho...she talked to me first so I thought it polite to invite her to come with my friends (Pabba and Martine) and I on the field study we were doing for our bio class. She agreed and everything was nice and peachy. At the field study, there was a heavy amount of flirting going on. She would play hit me, say kinky things, invite me to go the lake with her, tell me we needed to come back here just the two of us with a glass of wine, and occasionally discreetly caress her hand against mine. I would then look at her and she would smile. One can only imagine how happy I was. I didn't care at this point that she was older. I honestly thought she and I could work. Then, on the way home while chatting about her life, she mentioned she had a boyfriend. I was shocked. My jaw dropped and I felt like such an idiot for having really thought she was being serious on the field study. Then, after summing up her boyfriend story, she invites me to go to a concert with her. Why on earth did she have to do that? I could have dealt with her being unavailable, but then to just turn around and ask me to be her date to the concert...I really didn't understand. I ended up wallowing all evening because I was so depressed. I sought comfort from friends and most suggested that I make out with her and pull away. It sounds like an excellent way to get back, but I don't want to be that guy. I don't want to be the typical guy to destroys a relationship just to get back at a girl. Besides, I can't completely blame her for she may have just felt comfortable around me and was trying to get to know me as a friend.
This was the mentality I adopted for the next few days until our encounter in the elevator on Tues.
As I was going to get my waver to skip a prereq class in order to take another, I heard a voice shout "hold it, hold it". It was just my luck that it ended up being Ana P. She asked me what it was I had in my hand and I told her. She smiled and said "Oh, I'm taking that class too". Damn.No.Why? I thought. I kept my cool though and responded "Looks like you won't be able to get rid of me, I'll always keep on coming back". The rebuttled with "I don't have a problem with that at all". She then smiled, and got off at her desired floor. Why couldn't she have just kicked me in the balls? It would have been so much less painful. I hate it that I like her so much. I like a girl I hardly even know and it's driving me bloody mad. I don't know what will happen, but I will keep updating on the situation.

Sidenote>>If I do get the opportunity to be romantic with her, I will make it clear that if anything is to happen between us, she must set everything right with her bf. Only then will I allow myself to do anything. I just have to put myself in the other guys shoes. I would hate if some other punk messed around with my girl.

Alright, besides girl drama there is nothing else happening. All my incredible friends are doing well, and I hope to end the semester with another 4.0. Fingers Crossed! I'm out.

Fri, Feb. 4th, 2005, 03:36 pm
I do feel.

I cried yesterday afternoon. It was the first time in many months that I was able to shed a tear for something meaningful. I was scared that I had become so numb to everything and everyone. I couldn't feel any kind of emotion for so long, so it felt good to be able to cry. I was watching a Tsunami coverage show on MTV where different news correspondents from different countries traveled to the most devastated areas. Seeing all these people really made me feel unbelievably selfish and all I could think of was helping in any way I could. I have volunteered for a few things here, but still feel as though it is not enough. Human suffering is something that really hits a chord with me emotionally. I can't bear to see people suffer and have to compete for a single box of rice. I vow to be more charitable and treat the people I care about better than I have been.

Sun, Nov. 21st, 2004, 03:14 pm
Country drivin', Texas lovin' weekend!

What a truly amazing weekend! For the past month or so I have been raving about how much I was looking forward to going camping and the time finally came. On Friday, Amber, Tenne, and myself hopped in Amber's SUV and started our little Hill Country driving experience. We popped in a Country CD I had burned and just spent the whole drive over to San Marcos (heart of the hill country) singing along to our favourite country tunes. We could barely contain our excitement and were jittery the whole way over. Once we got to the camp site, we met up with our friends Brad and Andy. They had a fire going and were just leaving to go shoot some rabbit. I helped unload and then the girls and I set up the huge four bedroom tent. The setting up process went well, it was gathering the hay that was a hassel. Since the girls didn't want to get full of manure, I had to be the one making numerous trips around the back of the barn gathering the hay that would act as cushion for our backs. We suprisingly got everything up and going in about an hour which left the other dudes shocked upon returning with a jack rabbit for dinner. Brad skinned the rabbit and the girls cooked the sausage we had brought. It was a delicious meal. Later, we went exploring down the hills and gathered wood for our little bonfire we had going. After collecting the wood, we turned up the country music and the drinks came out. We were then joined by Brad's friend Chris and Andy #2. We hung out some, went mudding, chased cows in the truck, and almost got stuck in the mud while trying to find some rabbits to shoot. I saw various sets of eyes since I was spotlighting, but the other guys reaction times were a bit slow if you get my drift. After returning to camp, we made smores and put some brotwursts on the grill. GOOD STUFF. All in all, it was a fantastic evening. We had fun and I got wasted for the first time in four months. The next day was fantastic as well. Even though it rained hardcore in the early afternoon, we were able to make the best of it. We made hamburgers and hot dogs for dinner and then Ambers' friend Lauren came over with two of her friends. I don't remember much since I wasn't totally there, but I knew I was having fun. OH, Tenee's friend Rudy (Rudolph) came over as well. We had a huge bonfire going and the country music blasting in the background. It was FANTASTIC! I cannot wait to go camping again. I know many may find it shocking since I am a city boy, but my little country experience was just what I needed to relax and relieve some stress for awhile. I must say that for those two days, not once did I miss the city and never had I loved Texas so much. I apologize for mentioning the names of many people y'all may not know, but just try to picture really great people with awesome personalities and up for crazy adventures. Until next time.

Sun, Nov. 14th, 2004, 08:31 pm

I initially planned to give this entry a real intelligent title, but alas my efforts to come up with something sounding remotely smart have failed miserably.

A Quick Weekend Recap...

Friday night could not have been more enjoyable. My good friend Jaime came from the valley and it felt like old times. I miss having my guy friends around to hangout with and talk to. It seems that I am constantly surrounded by overwhelming amounts of estrogen (absolutely nothing wrong with that) and just needed someone who gets my point of view to be around. After arriving, we caught up on how everything had been going and decided that a chill evening out with a few friends was ideal considering the following night would consist of extreme amounts of jumping and head-banging. We phoned Steph and decided to go to the mall and visit Marci for a little while. After chatting a bit, we drove over to La Madeline and had a delicious/affordable dinner of chicken caesar sandwiches and pasta. Steph then suggested we check out Brindles and see if their gelado was any good. Much to my surprise, it was delicious. After walking around the Strand for awhile, we rushed over to the Bijou just in time for an indulgence of foreign film. The film of choice was 'Red Lights', a slow-moving yet very entertaining French film. After the movie, we called it a night because I had to awake bright and early the following morning to register for classes.

On Saturday, I again ventured over to Austin to see Switchfoot rock the house and like all the other times, they did so with relative ease. One thing different from the other concerts was that the opening acts didn't suck at all! In fact, they were both extremely entertaining, keeping everyone in the audience cheering and jumping during their performances. The Honorary title started the show and they were followed by one of my new favourite bands, The Format. If I ever were to play in a band, I would want it to be like theirs. I love when the singer has an attitude where he is approachable, yet still a rock star. I love when he bangs his head to the upbeat instead of the downbeat like everyone else. It just made him so much cooler. Anywho, I highly recommend downloading some of their material. When Switchfoot took the stage, the crowd went wild and it was time to show the little junior high posers that they had not come a laid back concert. I, of course, rocked out, head banging and jumping around to all the fast songs and allowing myself to be transported to a level of higher spirituality for the slower ones.

After the concert, Jaime, Shawna, and I decided to pay a few friends a visit. I initially was excited about hanging out with them, but soon found out that the last place I wanted to be was at these apts. My old friends, whose names will go unmentioned for fear of them stoning me to death, greeted us with ferocious, sardonic grins that made us all feel out of place. They were acting really weird and their chinese slanted/red eyes were indicative of the fact that they were under the influence of something HIGHLY illegal. I felt so out of place. In fact, I don't believe I have ever felt so out of place in my life. Jaime and Shawna felt the same way and we opted to leave the premises immediately. We tried to make a clean and quick getaway, but the friends insisted that hugs were required to make a formal departure and insisted we enter a room that they had been locked in. We entered to room to give a quicky hug and make a run for it, and it was then that I saw one of the most disturbing things ever. I know not what it was, and I care not to ever know. All I know is that there was burning of a substance and boiling water. As soon as I was able to get the hell out of there, I ran to my car so that I could feel at least some level of safety/comfort. Jaime and Shawna followed and we left Austin feeling both happy and upset. The thrill of the concert still resonated among the three of us and yet we could not help but feel upset/frightened about what we had just witnessed. It really sucks that such an amazing night had to come so close to being ruined. We tried really hard to forget what had happened and chilled out to some good music from the 'Alfie' soundtrack on the way home.

Today was slow. Jaime and I went shopping for a gift for him mom at Huebner Oaks' Fashion Village and then I came back to complete my week of studying for an exam I have tomorrow morning.

Ok, so my quick weekend recap turned out to be not so quick. My bad.

Thu, Nov. 4th, 2004, 10:17 pm

Ryan: So Adrian, What do you call someone who voted for Bush?
Adrian: Uninformed and Ignorant.
Ryan: I was just going to say stupid, but your description is far better.
Adrian: Stupid works too. I assume most of them really didn't know what they were doing. They voted on impulse or because their little friends were doing it. Also, you must take into account that a large portion of the votes came from inbreds lacking front teeth whose definition of fun is mudding and watching NASCAR on TV. I would also like to add that the majority have a vocabulary of a four year old so they probably couldn't understand the intelligent, eloquent speaking of Kerry.
Ryan: So true. Dude, I would like to see you argue Ann Coulter.
Adrian: Bring on that conservative BITCH! I would totally make her look like an idiot. Her arguments are so far out there and she always contradicts herself.
Ryan: So I assume that you are pissed off?
Adrian: You could say that. I'm more dissapointed than pissed. I just cannot fathom how people could willingly vote for someone so stupid. There seriously has to be something wrong with their brain, you know?
Ryan: I completely understand where you are coming from. Is there anything else that you would like to add to help with your dissapointment?
Adrian: Not really. I am going to try and be optimistic about the future.
Ryan: WHAT? HOW SO?
Adrian: Yeah, I will attempt to see the possibility of moving forward.
Ryan: Moving forward in what way?
Adrian: Well, having Bush assasinated for one. Then having Dick Cheney die from a massive heart attack.
Ryan: I couldn't have put it better myself.


A nice conversation I had with my friend Ryan earlier regarding the election.

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